I`m Confuse+Miss+Sad

Case 1
This week not much thing happen to me,bru baik demam since 10 april aritu,then life back to normal,bz working and complete all my task and assignment which has i receive from my boss..

Then Suddenly i do feel sumting different bout me..well i dont want to talk bout this anymore actually,cukupla it has happen to me till makes me sad a lot,no doubt bout it sumtimes i think of her and to make this feeling go away,just get myself bz with work and doing sumthing.she`s so special to me but our relation didnt turn up as well..

Case 2
I`ve known this 1 gurl in net,she`s young.Let me mention her By the name of S, she`s such a very nice person,even we havent talk to each other B4,but we do chat,suddenly my heart and feels towards her arise,automatically arise,but she did mention to me about sumting,which im ok with that,just i feel sumting inside my heart and feeling,should i just mention to her that i like her or just being quiet and this feeling keep hurting me as i keep it for myself,its sound`s crazy and mybe u all with judge or say how can possibility u never met or talk and u can have a feeling towards her??
There are so many things I wish I could tell her, but I can't. I'm not sure if she would ever understand because I don't understand half of it. I want to be with you so bad, but I'm so afraid of getting hurt and because of that, I end up getting hurt more. I really think there's a reason that I like her so much. Like something is telling me not to let her go. Every time I follow my heart... it leads me to her. I mean... what other explanation is there. Why is it that she is all I can think about? Why is it that no matter how upset I am... when i see her and I can't help but smile? Why is it that when she smiles at me... I get that feeling in my heart?? Answer me that, and then I'll tell you why I miss her so much.
well for me I'm going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everythings perfect, act like it's all a dream, and pretend it's not hurting me.

God pls give me strength and show me the way..